Checkmate...

Wow today was looooong.

I am such a morning person, and I neglict myself of that part of me all the time by staying up late on the net and then sleeping in. This morning I got up at 4:30am to take my Aunt to the Pittsburgh Airport and I was so energetic and happy and peaceful. I also love car rides so watching the sunrise on a car ride was heavenly. Sunrises are so amazing to me, they make me smile inside. I remembered to thank God for all the little things he gave me while I was driving back home alone and it puts me in this mood that I can't describe when I remember to be thankful for everything. Like I'm at peace, I'm not competiting, and I'm truly thankful. Humble perhaps? But I thought about how sick I was last year and how thankful I am to be healthy now, and how I have a place to live (I was homeless for a year before) and how thankful I am to have my family and the ability to work and etc etc.

I wish I could spell like a human. I read all the time and I use the computer all the time. I dont understand how I use visual language this much and spell like a semi-retarded 7 year old.


I am really happy where I am artistically right now. I'm out of my 2006 funk/slump/dump and now I'm being Melissa again. Just a little smarter and a little more appriciative. That book is coming out next month and I'm working with Sunday Eyes (Loverbear and I's band) and we have this amazing music video coming out soon, I really hope we get to record it this week. I am seriously more pumped than I can express right now. Also I have been letting myself get a little more expressive and sentimental in my writings and thoughts and it' s making me really happy. I used to be too insecure about it.

I lost all my weight again! GRRRR how does this happen? last week I weighed exactly what I wanted for so long and then because I'm poor I can't eat as much and I lost it just like that. I HATE MY METABOLISM. Although I am thankful that I can eat whatever. I just wish I could gain a little weight. meh....

I hate my hair. I mean I love it. But I want my red back, then I look in the mirror and think, I like the dark. MAN

So my new thing of the day was going to All Seasons and applying for jobs. I was so lost when I got in there. I'd tell you the story, but it's long and it doesn't make me look good. haha...

This is going to be a rager for sure!!


ok ok enough rambles I do believe. Although I'll probably edit this 100 times and add stuff anyway. I'm pretty sure I have Alzheimers and extreme ADD....